I’m going to try blogging on a weekly basis or maybe every 2 weeks… I’m not sure yet. I would seriously appreciate your guys’ thoughts/any feedback on these blog posts whether it be on future improvements, questions, or anything y’all want to know.
2 weeks ago was Life Skills week! The topics covered were budgeting, public speaking (my personal favorite… I say sarcastically), car maintenance and cooking. Public speaking is definitely not my favorite thing to do, however being on this team is helping me to overcome my fear of it… slowly but surely! On “car maintenance” day, we learned how to boost a car, change a tire, change the oil and check the oil level. I got to change a tire and volunteered to get a little dirty and empty the oil tank so that it could be changed. Doing these things brought back memories of my dad teaching me how to do this stuff. Thanks dad!
Last week the topics were prayer, conflict, conflict resolution and fear. I really enjoyed the lectures and got so much out of them and was equipped with tools that I can use in the future for sure. For me, the most memorable topic besides prayer was fear. Our speaker showed us what we thought was a happy, peaceful video of a car driving down a windy road down in the trees when it was actually one of those videos where a scary face popped up screaming!! We all jumped and shrieked a bit – one way to help us stay awake in the morning :p Later on, we each got a mouse trap and were instructed to write some of our fears on the back of it, and if we wanted we could share them out loud. It’s scary sharing your fears, but I believe it opens up doors for a deeper level of trust between people as well as welcomes others to help you overcome those fears. After sharing if we wanted, we were told to set the trap and put our hand over it with the goal of lowering our hand so that it touched the mouse trap… TALK ABOUT SCARY RIGHT?!?! I was freaking out because I didn’t want the trap to go off. Where do these fears come from??
Another interesting point that I learned during that lecture is that we fear when we are not in control *le gasp!*. You’d be comfortable driving down the road if you were the driver and had control of the vehicle, but you wouldn’t be as comfortable if you were in the passenger seat because you wouldn’t be in control of the vehicle, especially if animals decided to randomly cross in front of you. That was a mind=blown moment for me because I can definitely see what side of the vehicle I’ve been sitting on in my journey with God. I gave my life to Christ on June 1st (this week will mark 1 year!) last year and I still find myself trying to do things my way because I like being IN CONTROL. It’s hard to give Him the reins and just let Him take over because then He’s in control (aka the driver seat) and I’m not, but again that’s what DTS also stands for: Die To Self – poof, mind=blown… again. So there’s a little fun fact about me for you guys.
*Switching topics now* Part of my job description on staff is being garden project manager for the work duty slot during the week. I get to direct/lead the students in the garden whenever they are needed in there, and help out even if the students aren’t needed. It’s a growing but also a fun experience for me because it’s helping me develop my leadership/communication skills, hear from God and get to know the students even better!! Things are a bit different this year than last because we have flower bed plots around the perimeter of the garden, so on the one side each of the garden the students and I each have our own flower bed plots. It’s really exciting because as I plant flowers, vegetables or direct the students, God speaks to me by using garden metaphors about life, lessons I learn through gardening, or even through the dirt!! Who’da thunk :p! It’s awesome!!
I’d like to share some of what I’ve heard from God from being in the garden. When I weeded in my flower bed for the 2nd time, I felt God was saying “no matter how many ‘weeds’ you have growing in you, no matter how many times they show up, I will ALWAYS help you clean up the mess because I love you”. Another time, the dirt started crumbling as I took out a single leafy green plant from the tray it came in. Before planting it, I soaked it in water so the roots would loosen up. When I took it out, the dirt crumbled even more and I immediately enclosed it in my hands and did my best to keep the plant together. In that moment, I felt God said “this is what I do when my children ‘fall apart/crumble/veer off track’. I hold them even tighter in my hands and help put them back together.” It’s seriously amazing what He can say to you, even through dirt of all things!! I could go on, but this post is getting quite long and I don’t want to take up too much of your time.
I’m very excited for this week and for our students as our next speaker will be talking about the Father Heart of God which I’m hoping to blog about next week! Alright, take care and God bless you all 😀